The Minimalism Gane is still going strong, I've just been too lazy to write about it, but I do still post daily on Facebook and Instagram.
In the spirit of the game, I've been slowly sorting out my clothes, trying to get my self to discard some clothing, which has not been easy as I expected already. I tried to apply a bit of the Konmari method, that is looking at which item sparks joy. Problem is that the ones that do spark joy are my batik dresses which I don't wear anymore since I'm still breastfeeding and pretty much only go out for groceries shopping. My daily clothes don't really spark joy, but I can't really let them all go because then I'd literally have nothing to wear. So while the closet is looking tidy, it's still full, and I still feel like I have nothing to wear.
Today I went out to the center, and went inside a clothing store. When passed a mirror, I looked at my reflection and I cringed. I literally hated what I saw. Who is that woman, looking old and tired and frumpy? Why did I wear that old t shirt that didn't do me anything. Why put on brown autumn coat over that awful red t shirt? What's up with the no make up look even though I did put on some make up? Ugh.
I looked around and tried some shirts on, and finally bought a button down shirt thay is not black or blue and actually has prints. It was €12.50, no discounts, and I felt guilty to be paying full price. I would love to upgrade my wardrobe with clothes that actually makes me feel good wearing them on a daily basis, but I always feel guilty spending money that I didn't earn, and that's why I've mostly been buying cheap clothes on discounts. Which are usually not the most fashionable items or the best quality, and I'd end up with that "I have nothing to wear" feeling all over again. Whay a vicious cycle.